in the late nite
There is a lot to be said about new beginnings and to say it has been a whirlwind of a year would be accurate if not an understatement. While I could have spent a good part of the year dwelling on unmet expectations and failed personal relationships I can proudly say I did a good job building upon old and new ones, reestablishing foundations of solid friendships and finding that all I ever needed has always been there to point me in the right direction. I had been hit by harsh realities of reckless mistakes but as always with unexpected trials, it is onward and upward and the overplayed but overly true side effect of learning to move forward with bad decisions. Regardless, I am still in deepest love with 2016 and what it did to me. 2016, you were a hot mess but like all the messy people in my life, I accept you and thank you for being anything but stagnant.
W I N T E R. Portland & Best Friends in their truest form. people make an effort to be in your life and you make an effort to overcome anything to be in the lives of those that matter. thank you, 2016 for giving me people with the perspective to overrationalize everything, tell you what you need to hear without the slightest care in the world what it may do to your feelings just as long as you wake up from your clouded judgments and see what you need to make yourself better. for unbreakable bonds with those you swore to be chained to for life and realizing that hey, you may hide all you want, but at the end of the day, you need them.
S P R I N G. in spring i gave up on something i was not ready for but thank you 2016 for bringing me closer to the person i took responsibility with and the promises we made to push each other to be the best possible versions of ourselves and accomplish everything we ever wanted. you gave me something to look forward to
S U M M E R. Long Hours & Initiative & Power & Taking Risks & Leading a business. at the peak of this years heatwave, i took on new responsibilities and endeavors and yes, bottom line, there are days i want to give up. yes, there are days when you have to sacrifice being liked for success. but yes, the perks are the eventful days, gaining respect and loyalty of those you lead, building a team of riders who would go through hell with you, and the self-growth i have discovered in the face of constant challenge. thank you, 2016 for giving me the backbone to slay and prove people wrong
F A L L. Love & Love & Love. Love and his counterpart, Blindness, have really done a number on us. but through the ups and downs of this chaotic relationship, i can say that i will be ending 2016 on a good and happy note and will be going into the new year with promise, more growth, and willingness to sacrifice and acceptance of each others downfalls. i understand the conditions of being with someone like him but i chose to because i am in love with the good-morning messages, the way he challenges me, and the way he makes an effort to prove to my family that he can be by my side. thank you, 2016 for giving me someone who kisses me to shut me up when i start nagging too much, someone who drives up to make sure i have an umbrella when it rains, and someone who makes the best surprise dinners because he knows im always hungry.
Di$ be my lYfe now~
we’re a mess together. a beautiful mess.
always a good movie to watch when youre missing summer
spontaneity wins again, this time taking a friend and i victim on a monday night as we ventured into san diego for a much needed escape from our realities. people always say the best plans are the unplanned ones and i have never agreed more; boiling crab, balboa park, downtown san diego, the pacific coast highway, the ortega mountains, ending the night at our favorite diner, and all the beer and good conversation inbetween. honestly, nothing was more gratifying that being somewhere with someone and forgetting the rest of the world exists. like when youre sitting on the stage of an empty amphitheatre talking about what it would be like to be famous or running down the streets of 4th avenue and market street buzzed and cold and laughing or driving down the dark and rainy ortega roads on a tank running on empty but not caring because the hey, the music was good and we were high on our own recklessness. there is always something so satisfying about nights that end at sunrise
Degrees of Emotion
It annoys me to no end when people have a bad day and talk about how “depressed“ they are. So, I made some emotional scales. These show the extremes of emotions and the most minimal state of the emotion.
(Source: memeatron5000)
nicole was applying some EOS Lip Balm the other day and one of our bosses goes, “what the hell is that, deodorant?”
the little things that get me through my work days.
(Source: vommett)
i want to blog but i cant. too many thoughts and my vocabulary isnt broad enough to justify the things that run through my mind and beat my heart. i am many things at the moment, horrible and acceptable, but i am not a blogger.